Who Am I?

Katastema | kat-as’-tay-mah |: demeanor or outward behavior of living.
Born and raised in Oklahoma, I have always had this driven passion inside of me to strive for things greater than what my small town could hold. Whether it was running with the crowd or charging against the crowd; I knew that this life was too vast to handle in one spot. In the span of my college career I have managed to relocate to five different cities in two different states. My hope to keep searching for “bigger” and “better” failed me time and time again. The displacency of always wanting more consumed me to no end. Through those times of confusion I found only one thing to be infallible. That my Savior who protected me in all of my despair and failed attempts at creating these certain ‘lifestyles’ was always there at every moment. Waiting for me to fix my eyes on the only good and true thing that would not adhere to my earthly desires. If you’re like me, you’re probably wondering, “How do I manage to balance all sides of my life to fit into the pattern of God’s will?” Well, I can honestly answer this in the ways that I have failed and learned through it. You can’t. I have learned throughout my trials of running away from God that you are either for Him or against Him. You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self,which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds;  and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” -Ephesians 4:22-24. My problem was that I was putting God in this confined space where I only allowed Him to act when I WANTED, and that is not how the Creator of the stars operates. He operates in a space so infinite that you could not calculate how vast His eminence is. My hope is to not merely inform you on how I live my life, but to give you insight on how I’ve managed to live all of these lifestyles to figure out how they all collide in the eyes of the Creator. Ideally, a more in depth approach of how to counteract the balance of your life and figuring out where to draw the line of luke-warm to whole-heartedness. This is My Stéma.LC